Nearly 11 months later...

On January 19th, 2012, I underwent weight loss surgery (the vertical sleeve). 11 months later, I have lost close to 120 pounds. And, I wish I had begun writing sooner. There have been lots of hard moments over the last eleven months. Lots of tears. Lots of unacknowledged anger bubbling to the surface. A whole lot of stuff that I didn't see coming. And, now, there is an emptiness inside that I need to fill. I once filled it with food, and now, I am struggling to find the filler. I am also coming to this moment due to fear. There is a great fear that lingers with me at all times - the fear of failure. So I begin. I begin to tell my story, and hope that I can help anyone else who stumbles upon this "place."