Wednesday, July 10, 2013

A Pregnancy Pause

I have been away for quite awhile and must blame the first trimester of my pregnancy. With my first child, I had a horrible pregnancy - given I was over 350 pounds when I got pregnant to the horror of my OB. Needless to say, I battled gestational diabetes from day 1, physical ailments, mental strife, severe anxiety over the pregnancy and finally, over 15 days of hospital bed rest because of pre-eclampsia. It was a doozy. Thankfully, I survived and more importantly, my beautiful child did as well. This time, it is a completely different story. Part of my reason for having a sleeve was to successfully have more children without all of the health concerns and issues I experienced. When I found out I was pregnant this Spring, I was excited and scared. It brought back all the emotions and overwhelming anxiety I had experienced during my first pregnancy. After all, I remember going to my OB's office for the first pregnancy visit ever, and they told me that I or my child would likely die. Whew, a lot of baggage! Therefore, I decided to start this pregnancy fresh with a new OB and new outlook. I reached my second trimester last week, and the overwhelming nausea has gone away, and I am ready to start blogging again.

My experience with #2, so far... completely different. Perhaps it's because I am pregnant for the second time, or perhaps it's because I am a health weight, I just feel different. I was very nauseated for the first trimester, which I don't remember with my first. Additionally, given my bariatric diet, I haven't really indulged in too many sweets. Although, initially carbs were the only thing that sounded remotely good. I will say, I am afraid of gaining weight. Not super afraid, but afraid of letting myself "go wild." Amazingly, anytime I have ventured into the sugar department, i.e. carbland, I tend to get a horrible aftertaste in my mouth and start feeling pretty icky. Therefore, my own body is trying to tell me something!!! And, the biggest different is exercise. I have forced myself to go workout during my lunch hours - something that I try and do at least three times a week. With feeling better, it may go up. But, this is completely different this time around. My goal is to remain as active as possible, and not let the couch become my home (where I spent most of my time the last pregnancy). Finally, I have to say, being classified as a "normal pregnancy" has been wonderful. It is very empowering and exciting.

Here's to looking forward to the rest of the journey.

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